So far, most of December and early January has be spent doing research, reviewing plans and obtaining materials. Which, is not exactly the most fun part of a creative endeavor, but is super helpful in keeping things on track and moving forward. It also helped to inspire me while I waited for the grant check to arrive from Creative Sonoma.
I have purchased the capes. So, now in the process of deciding how I to construct the chest plate for the front and transfer the logo onto the back begins. I have also purchased an inexpensive pay phone replica which I plan to modify for the listen and record activities. I have several ideas about this which need more exploration. I have also started on the yellow pages. But, I admit my heart has not really been in it. So, I have focused my energy on getting the cape production sorted out. I borrowed a sewing machine from a friend to help me tailor the capes (thanks, Pam).
Today's confession: While my mind works very quickly and I am an excellent problem solver, I am often paralyzed in making final decisions. Consequently, I procrastinate or put off projects or purchases for another future time. Tonight, I broke that habit.
Following my intuition, I registered for the community class for experienced woodworkers moments after noticing the dog-eared community education pamphlet sitting on top of the book pile by the heater. It had been there since I brought it up from the mailbox two days ago. I am not sure why I did not register immediately. I was so excited when I received it that I read the pamphlet going up the stairs to my apartment. I knew immediately that this was the best solution for a production facility close to home. And yet, I procrastinated thinking... "tomorrow, I will do it tomorrow." Thankfully, tonight I heeded the voice in my head that said "you should do this now." There were only 2 spots left open when I logged in to sign up.
Today's personal insight: Procrastination is sometimes very helpful as a motivating force for me. But, this episode felt dismissive and willful. Feeling into the situation, I found hints of resistance, insecurity, laziness, self-sabotage and fear underlying the procrastination. A reflection that was both awkward and authentic to my experience, yet revelatory and true.